What is LOVE???!!!
When can one fall in LOVE???!!!
When is the right time for one to fall in LOVE????
Why one always has to fall in LOVE and not rise in it???
Why we always associate LOVE with a boyfriend or a girlfriend or a random crush???
Why do these feelings of LOVE arise in us???
Why do we feel the need to LOVE someone or something???
Well there is a host of questions we can ask ourselves about LOVE, and each of us will
have our own set of questions about it with our own set of answers which obviously will relate to our perception of this phenomenon known as LOVE.
I don't want to look into the dictionary to get an exact definition of Love. Well I am sure dictionaries too will have their own set of answers. But rather I will speak of what I think of Love and what Love means to me exactly and how I feel in and out of Love over time and how Love has rescued me back all the time. There are so many things about Love which I absolutely Love, but first of them is its definition. I believe Love is the ability to understand magic happen in front of our eyes, its that ability which can make us believe in things we never thought could exist. Love is the like, the ability to appreciate even the things which might appear ugliest to a pair of eyes, but for you, you absolutely love and adore them. Love is the ability to look beyond the things and to look through. "I SEE YOU" [Avatar, 2010] It appears to be simple but its the most complex of things one can ever look for. Love is for one and for all, no caste, sex, religion, age, society or community can stop it. It happens without a notice and it can happen anytime. Cheers to LOVE!!!! <3
I don't exactly remember the time I was born or was crying in the lap of my mother. I don't remember being welcomed at home for the first time. I can't recall how I was given a name or when for the first time I learnt to speak and walk. Nor can I remember how many baby-walkers I have broken or how many times I ran about my house. I can't remember staring at the ceiling fan or shivering in the cold with nothing on me except a blanket which too used to hurt me like hell. I don't remember the worried faces of my parents when they thought I would not survive, nor do I remember how my dad used to run about from doctor to doctor just to make sure he didn't miss out on a chance to keep me alive and breathing. I don't remember my mother sitting beside me, watching me sleep and silently praying to God so that everything will be alright. I just don't remember any of it. I don't remember when my first photograph was taken nor do I remember my first dress or shoes, or my first ride on the scooter or the car, for that matter even the train. I don't remember what made it all happen, but even before I could realize the wonders of the world, I was in LOVE. Yes, indeed I was in Love with the kind faces around me, making sure I never went hungry or thirsty, or ever felt the cold, or the heat. I was in Love with my parents- Mom and Dad. I don't remember when or how and why, but I was in LOVE with them. My first LOVE!!!
I remember being angry on my parents when I had seen this photo of me in a garden. I used to be so angry on them for keeping me there all alone, what if something would have gone wrong with me... I know that was very silly of me to think like that, but I felt that they can't leave me alone, but in this supposed photo they had. Silly me had little realized back then that obviously they were beside me and that I was never alone. It was just that I Love them so much that what I saw in the photo was just me and not them beside me which made me all the more angrier, after all I Loved them and they can't be so bad to me. It was for the first time perhaps I realized that I was in LOVE. :-)
Memories have been a great source of strength for me. Whenever I feel lonely or I am sad, I look back to those glorious days, to the days when I was carefree and having the best time of my life. It is all a memory now, but I remember smiling at the pigeon which had come to our house, the dog which dad had bought home. I remember loving the tree at the corner of our house which would be like my second home, and its strong branches would be my thorne. Those sweet guavavas which would as if melt inside my mouth, those flowers in and around our garden, those stray dogs which were more like a family to us. I was in LOVE with everything around me. Those streets, those small roofs which I and Dad would climb once a while to set the antennae right. Those long evening walks, the early morning park walks. Those games with friends, those sleepless afternoons, those picnics, those rainy days when I could get wet. I was in LOVE, and as I look back at these days I realize that I still Love them, maybe time has stopped me from doing all these things but it surely hasn't stopped me from loving the best days of my life. I Love it and will always LOVE it... My LOVE
Class-III and I remember having a dream about this certain guy. This was the first time I realized that Love is meant to happen with a person from the oopsite sex as well. This dream made me believe that I was in LOVE with him. It was nice to have a good time with him, play with him, invite him in my birthday parties and just have a good time. Somewhere around Class-IV or V, my seat was changed and I was to sit beside a guy now. He was a really cool friend of mine and once again I thought I was in LOVE with him, hardly giving a thought about the previous guy. But most of all I believed I was in Love with my childhood friend, my first friend. His mom and my mom were best of friends but over time, due to a number of reasons and bad luck we parted our ways. But only after I came to know about his girlfriend in Class-XII, I, for the first time felt my heart break because I believe a part of me always wanted him to be by my side, a part of me, I think, Loves him. And even though I am sorry for not being even a good friend, I am sorry for losing my first Love. This was the chapter of guys for me in my life when this guy enters in the scenario and claims a hell lot of things. But somehow I knew it was all vague and shallow, even though my own sister wanted me to hook up with him, I knew something just wasn't right and so I broke all my contacts with him. This new guy made me realize that LOVE means a hell lot of things to different people and that not everyone thinks like me, so I better be careful.
Tuffy, my hero is my sweetheart and my true Love. Even though I have lost him six years ago, I remember loving him from the very first day. Even though Goldie and Karvy have always been nice to me, but I somehow feel Tuffy was my best friend and my true Love. I will always miss you, but I know someday, somehow we will meet, and the day I will meet you, I will know it is you. LOVE YOU!!!,always. >:D<
I was really scared to enroll myself in a college, I thought I would lose myself there and whatever I have learnt in school will be gone when I am in college, I will pick up habits and attitude which would only lead to my fall. Though when for the first time I entered my college building, I fell in LOVE with it. SXC, I Love you and I miss you a lot.
Here I met a number of guys on whom I had crushes. Amongst them was the Foreigner, Nature Boy, Red shirt, a few other guys whose names I don't know or remember or even want to mention. Nonetheless, they were all crushes and nothing serious ever happened. Thank God for that.
In my second year, my Class-III crush was back in my life. We were watching movies together, hanging out togther, but never talking so much. But I felt I was in Love. Things were going good until I made them worse. I thought I was in Love, but I was only a problem for him. So my supposed Love ended right there.
It was time for me to move out of college and find a new life for myself. I felt I was all alone when I found someone I could rely on and someone I could love. It was my best buddy, Rohil. He was the most amazing thing that had happened to me after a really long time. He was there in and out, he wouldn't laugh at my stupidities but would always encourage me, would support me and most of all have faith in me. Yes, I was in Love once again. I admired and loved him like small children love those huge teddy bears which we want to have but can't. We would share everything and anything possible on this earth. I would call him my step-mom when he would chide me like a child. And even though we are now so far away from each other, I Loved him, I Love him and will always LOVE him. Miss you so much buddy. Love you.
Love has so many faces and so many meanings. I have loved so many people and so many things over time. For me each form of Love is precious and memorable. And here I am once again in Love. My LOVE for that one guy who has been so patient with me all this while. Its been more than two years now and we are still together[touch wood], this itself tells about the greatness of the guy who has so much patience and courage to still stick around with me. I am a normal human being and my wants and desires I much more simple than me, I just want everything to be perfect, to me my way, the best way. And the sweetest part of this relationship is that even though things are never perfect [according to what I think of perfection], its better than perfection itself. I am so much in Love, and I never ever had thought that I too can be like this. Blushing, smiling, laughing at the silliest jokes possible, sharing, caring, trusting, hoping each day would be something special for each one of us, wishing and praying for the other. Dancing in the room, thinking he is here with me, not singing loudly cause he gets irritated, smiling all the time, thinking that someone is watching me all the time. It is just a great feeling to be with. And this new Love, completely different from what I have felt uptil now. It makes me wonder, hurts me, makes me laugh, makes me go crazy and do things I would have never thought I could have done. In front of him, I am this stupidest, silliest creature imaginable, the child I miss being the most. I laugh and I cry like a Child, I am most pampered by him, I am most loved by him. He knows even the worst part of me and still loves me. And he knows I Love him too. My Loveliest of Loves!!! My dearest Love, it is because of you that the Love I had always looked upto and looked forward to has come so true and alive. I had never thought I could be Loved this way, the way you Love me and the way we shall always Love each other.
And then I Love my friends too, my dear dumb buddies. That doesn't mean that they are not smart, they are the smartest creatures I have known and I feel I am the dumbest around me [in front of some of them atleast]. There is my dear Pallavi, Payal, Ritu, Sharmi, Ajanta, Sonam, Ritika, Amrita, Deep, GG, Pritha, Kunal, Ammu, Samster, Shiby, Jon, Aubhi, Neha and so many more... Love you all guys...
IT IS ALL ABOUT LOVE...
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