Just imagine, one whole month without me blogging about anything. How very lazy of me? Anyways not much to share about. Just that I got myself a cell phone and a laptop and also have this big plans of getting myself a watch. Believe me the watch is made for me and no doubts about that.
Oh by the way, I would be fasting now. And I guess I am losing weight which is obviously a good thing. And you know out of utter disgust and anger I cut my hair and I regret that every damn day because now my hair looks pathetic and believe me more than my hair, I am in a bigger mess and I don't know how to get out of it. But somehow I am managing to survive it every day.
The worst part I noticed about myself recently is that I am avoiding talking to myself. Even when I am all alone and you know spending time with myself, I am so not talking with myself. I don't know what to do with myself and my stupid thoughts. At times I believe there will be this stupid magic wand which will turn my life around and will bring all the happiness in the world for me. But the very next moment I realize my life is not a stupid Bollywood movie which will have a happy ending. I know things are going to get messier. Just that I am avoiding confrontation right now. I don't know how I am struck in a Bella-kind of situation. At least she was clear about Edward, but it seems like my love for Jacob is proving to be very strong. Oh how I wish Taylor Lautner was all mine and that I get married to him.
Silly of me to even think of such things in such an age. When I should be all mature and wise, I am cooking up these silly plans in my mind. Well the fact remains, all my life all I have been is mature and wise, listening to others, doing things which others like, which is for the others, and being someone I never was. But that doesn't cause sadness, it just shows how easily I can do things for others and be what others want me to be. I always believed there would be someone who would realize what I want for a change and take care of me for a change. But all I ever do is take care of others. I will have to, if I don't want to lose them.
Anyways enough of nonsense. I will have to sit and write sometime real soon. Till then adios amigos....!!!
Oh by the way, I would be fasting now. And I guess I am losing weight which is obviously a good thing. And you know out of utter disgust and anger I cut my hair and I regret that every damn day because now my hair looks pathetic and believe me more than my hair, I am in a bigger mess and I don't know how to get out of it. But somehow I am managing to survive it every day.
The worst part I noticed about myself recently is that I am avoiding talking to myself. Even when I am all alone and you know spending time with myself, I am so not talking with myself. I don't know what to do with myself and my stupid thoughts. At times I believe there will be this stupid magic wand which will turn my life around and will bring all the happiness in the world for me. But the very next moment I realize my life is not a stupid Bollywood movie which will have a happy ending. I know things are going to get messier. Just that I am avoiding confrontation right now. I don't know how I am struck in a Bella-kind of situation. At least she was clear about Edward, but it seems like my love for Jacob is proving to be very strong. Oh how I wish Taylor Lautner was all mine and that I get married to him.
Silly of me to even think of such things in such an age. When I should be all mature and wise, I am cooking up these silly plans in my mind. Well the fact remains, all my life all I have been is mature and wise, listening to others, doing things which others like, which is for the others, and being someone I never was. But that doesn't cause sadness, it just shows how easily I can do things for others and be what others want me to be. I always believed there would be someone who would realize what I want for a change and take care of me for a change. But all I ever do is take care of others. I will have to, if I don't want to lose them.
Anyways enough of nonsense. I will have to sit and write sometime real soon. Till then adios amigos....!!!
