If...

If there were words greater than my feelings...

If there were actions greater than my thoughts.

I'm sure you would have known how I feel for you

And you would have seen that my love is true...

All I have to say is that I love you :)

Love me when I'm gone

It is indeed difficult to be in a long-distance relationship. And it can get really frustrating and irritating at times that you may not even realize why all of this is happening to you. Maybe all this happens because at times when you feel like hugging that one person who is so special and precious to you, you can't. And at times when you want to talk to him so badly, and you know he is busy somewhere else and you know not of his mood, you can't do anything about it. It isn't easy to be close to someone who is physically so far away from you and you can't even reach out to him anytime and every time you want to. At times you so want him to see those tears in your eyes which others have not and you so want him to listen to your heart beat faster each time you are feeling lonely and you are sad and depressed. But then even he is not around you to realize that you are silently crying inside and the smile you wear on your face is just a mask. And then there is the fear that since he is so far away from you and home, he is all alone and you can't dump all your worries and insecurities on him. Even he has a life to live and you can't always make him listen to you when there are so many things which are still left to be done for him too and he too has every right to live his life his own way.


All this makes you think why did you ever go for a long-distance relationship. Maybe because there was no one worth you, around you, who would have understood you and stood by you, and that when you needed someone there was no one to make you feel so special as he had always done for you.


Its the magic when you look at your inbox and see his messages, even just saying a simple 'Hie' or that he is busy and will talk a little later. There's a big smile on your face just when you see his name flash on your cell phone and whenever you think of the late night conversations you had with him. All this makes you realize that he is indeed special and that he is yours. It feels great when he calls just to say that he is busy and won't be able to talk for a while or will not be able to attend your calls... they just show that somewhere back in his mind he was thinking of you even though was in the midst of all the chaos and all the engagements couldn't keep him away from thinking about you.


That is when you feel that even though there are those tough phases in your relationship you can't afford to overlook those phases when you can just laugh your heart out with him and feel special and precious whenever he is around you even though he is miles away. You feel that for a change there is someone out there who cares for you and no matter how far away he is, you know somehow that he is the one for you and you are totally committed to him. That is when you look forward to a bright future where you hope and dream and wish and pray for things far better than how they are currently going on...

No sweet escapes...

Without this and that I was mighty happy
There was no latent desire and no pain, you see.
Since I had learnt the strategy for my survival
Had learnt to keep shut when there was no need.

But when there are those killer headaches

And those pain killers make no efforts or any delays,

I feel like running away from everything

And it gets worse when I realize I have no say.

And then it happens, it was so uncalled for
That I burst out and displayed those feelings inside of me.
This wasn't the way it was supposed to be
This wasn't exactly what I wanted to see in me.


And then all this happened
Making me realize how big a mistake I had committed
All the things I hate revolving around me
And yet I am so quite and so under-rated.


Perhaps that is how my life was meant to be,
To scream and shout and yet be so quite.
The new tasks that I face each day
Remind me that there are no sweet escapes...