Monday, February 15, 2016

My Ex's Marriage

Well a self explanatory title indeed. My Ex is married indeed and I know not where to begin from. But nonetheless I will. Somehow this year I want to write and write things which have hurt me and may also hurt a lot of people. But as we all know in due course the hurt will subside and if my feelings were not considered should I consider about these so called others who left? Whether wrong or right, good or bad, here I am talking about my so called Ex.

Many of you may not even know his name, but to tell you the truth he was my very first relationship. Being the stubborn girl with high ideals and virtues, I choose to stay single till after my college and finally while doing my Masters I said yes to this wonderful guy. Well he used to be wonderful, I know not anymore. The reason for me getting so late into a relationship was because I always thought myself to be a serious kind of person, a one-man woman kind of person. So even though I did get proposals from quite a few guys, I would always rejected them ruthlessly without even considering about their feelings, so maybe the same thing happened exactly with me. Nevertheless, he is happily married today (well at least I hope so) and here I am living my life and enjoying the many opportunities I otherwise would have missed had he been in my life. Thank you for leaving me. It did hurt and somehow it hurts even today, but thank you for the valuable lesson of my life.

So very recently something happened and I thought of looking for my Ex on Facebook and I realize he is married and it has definitely been more than 6 months that he has been married for. Well now I remember the reason for searching for him, he had messaged me on GTalk and I replied back stating we should not bother each other anymore. I would have never said that, had our last interaction not been so ugly. I wish I could share what actually did happen but then who cares, I can share. He called me one fine day, infact I was sleeping so I could not answer his calls. Anyhow he kept trying to contact me and when finally we did end up speaking with each other, he send me a link to an adult video claiming the video features Me. To my utter shock, hate, disgust, and what not, I tried to calm myself down and opened the Link just to find some random people sharing their intimate moment in public. For a moment I thought maybe my face was morphed or what, but then it wasn't me. I knew I am not that kind of a person, and even though I was going through a very ugly phase of my present relationship, I knew there was nothing like that to be shared out in public. And that was the day when all I love, respect, my feelings were shattered and destroyed for him and all I was left - anger, disgust, pain and hurt. Yet somehow when I saw his picture with his wife, tears fell from my eyes. I felt somewhere what stupidity had I done, how easily had I trusted a person who betrayed me and proved me wrong every other time. This was the man I had so blindly trusted on and had also introduced to my parents.

All my ideals, my virtue went down to the ditches. The pride I had went away just in a second. How wrong did I prove myself to be. One man woman - a complete joke I have made out of myself. And yet you know, even after so much has passed, I feel proud of myself. I feel independent, I feel successful and above all I feel Loved. Isn't that the greatest joy of all. Isn't that what we strive for each day, a little harder, a little more.

I hope unlike me, you do not hurt your wife. Your promise that you will never get married, even if your parents force, obviously was a sham the same way your promise to be by my side in good or bad days, to love me till the end, and to marry me. Everything a mere sham. And I like a fool believed it all. But thanks for the lesson, a much needed one.

All the best my Ex with your future EXperiences. You are now Past and will remain so. And please do not try and come near me anymore to betray your wife. Stay with her, be happy with her, and watch adult videos with her, but then don't go looking for me in the videos, don't see my face in the malls you roam around with her, don't feel my presence in the movie hall when you are with her. Belong to her and her only. And I am sure I don't need to elaborate so much, you are mature enough to handle things yourself, the way you had handled the entire situation about me with your family. Just get rid of the problem - the most effective and easy solution possible on earth.

Thanks a lot for every single thing you failed to do for me.

Well but then it is my Ex's marriage, one should not be sad, one should rejoice at one's happiness. Be happy and stay happy. God Bless.

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