That's about it...

You know what its really been a long time that I properly sat to write something down. So many things have happened, so many days gone by and here I am still the same old me. Well to tell you frankly I do love myself and wish that I don’t change at all but somehow something or the other keeps on changing in me each day.

To begin with, well I have done it, I have dared to love life again. I have dared to fall head over heels in love once again. No doubts it was a tough call for me after what had happened but you know what this relationship seems to be a lot more difficult and stranger. Not that I don’t love him or something but to love him means to accept and not to expect so very many things. I know it will take time and I will learn in due course, but somehow losing out on my patience isn’t the best option for present. But yes I am surviving, taking my chances one by one and trying to out-do myself. Whatever that is supposed to mean.

Contemplating on what has changed or not, a lot of friends have gone so far away. Not that I am not happy for them just that I miss the fun we had together. But what is the point of regretting the loss, its better to rejoice because I could a chance to live those moments with special people and I hope they remember it too.

That’s about it from my side. I had thought I would write a lot more, but just don’t feel like anymore. Maybe some other time. Till then take care and enjoy…

Kuch to abhi baaki hai...!!!!

Off lately I have been intending to write a lot of stuff but just did not had the right words and also wasn’t in the right frame of mind to write things properly. I did not want to write stuff which will mess up things for me. Already I feel like I am in the quick sand, no matter what I do I drown deep inside. But I feel even this is a phase of life which I will get over with and believe me if I can sail through these days I will be a mature person indeed. And frankly I want to be that mature person who is loved by all. Don’t know how it will be possible but I will try and try my best, for sure.

To tell you the truth I don’t want to talk about whatever happened. Bad memories are something I always want to escape from. And so I should try and talk about the positives. The one positive thing is that I am positive that everything will work out. I know Bhagwanji has His own ways of testing me and I know I will surely succeed this time. Bhagwanji, please be by my side all the time and do not leave me alone ever. You are the only one I can trust on at this dark hour.

At this point, I can only remember Barney Stinson’s dialogue from ‘How I Met Your Mother?’

            “When I feel sad, I stop being sad and be awesome instead…!!!! TRUE STORY”

That is about almost I want to say at this point. I shall speak more when the right time comes. Till then all the very best to me… May Bhagwanji give me enough courage and maturity to face things in the right frame of mind.