Sunday, January 16, 2011

The Champu

He is short
And wears spectacles
His cheeks are always red
And his life is only about the text.

He is sincere
And he is fine
That is why I find him
Always standing in the library line.

He never misses classes
He writes word by word
His notebooks are filled
Even his pens seem to hurt.

He never stares at girls
Is too shy to look at them.
Attends even Pinter’s classes
Even though he has opted for Eliot.

But whatever he is
No matter how much he might blush
He seems like a genuinely cute guy
In our stupid old ragged class.

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Em Fo TuO

If LIGhT Was ThE DArkNeSs oF LiFe
If bRighTnESs Was The Dim LiGhT
The FloWeRs WouLD DRy OfF AnD ThEn BLoOm
ThE SuN WOuLd HaVe SEt inSteAd oF RiSinG
We WouLdn't hAVe BEen AliVe anD RAthEr bE DyInG

IF It wAs The SuN WhIch ReVolVEd ArounD ThE eArTh
IF thERe Was nO WatEr anD onLy DiRth
WhAT CouLd HaVe yOu DonE?!?!?!
WithOuT DayLiGhT oR ThE Sun?!?!
Or WoUld DeATh bE mOre Fun?!?!

Monday, January 3, 2011

2010

Gosh, I can’t believe 2010 has come to an end and 2011 has already started. It seems like yesterday when I was happy and excited just to see that 2010 has arrived. But fortunately I had the opportunity of enjoying the good, some bad and some really bad days of my life in the bygone year.

It’s also a little weird to see that for whole 2 months I haven’t even bothered to update my blog. Not that I wasn’t inspired to write or type out stuff, but just that my mind wasn’t ready to write down all my thoughts. It seems like it is getting difficult by the day for me to express myself. It seems like I have the thought but no words which can properly express it. And moreover my thoughts are so revolting in nature that I am sure if anyone gets to read it will only think of me as a selfish mean bitch or even can tag me as a psycho. But nonetheless those are a part of me and I just cannot seem to do away with them.

Some of the great memories of 2010 as I look back to the year are my experience and friends in Bhavans. It was an awesome time I had with each one of them and as we were heading towards the end of the course, at least I came closer to a few people. Fortunately or unfortunately I am not so anymore, at least with the whole lot, yet I managed to sustain some really good, in fact great friends from my mass communication department and I wish them all lots and lots of love and luck not just this year but all the years to come.

I don’t have a great memory of my birthday though. But I clearly remember how excited I was when I came back home from university. It was the first package I was to get from someone. And that someone, needless to mention, is a very special person in my life and will always be. I remember shedding tears, sitting on my bed, talking to him over the phone and being so very happy. Well for sure he was the only reason of my happiness that day. Not to mention 2 of my friends as well, who were there by my side, even though one still bothers to stand by my side. I love you guys a lot. And I love YOU the most my baby. <3

AIR internship was another good experience for me. Got a chance to get to know one of my very good friends really closely and I wish her the best in love and life always. She is an awesome friend for sure. :-) The stupid bus rides back home and missing out on the same bus while going towards AIR. I will remember and cherish all of it forever. Then our outdoor shoot @ Uttarayan. That was the best day of my stay in Bhavans. We interacted with the children, had so much fun and we came a lot closer to what I now know is true beauty of Nature. Thank You Bhagwanji for all the opportunities you gave me here and always. Love YOU!!! After the exams of Bhavans, it was fun to see how people got busy with their own lives and how everyone drifted apart. But as I said earlier I managed to sustain friendship with a handful of them and they will always remain very close to my heart. Love you guys.

Then was the time for university examinations. I was so irritated when our exams were postponed by a week. And this was the time when I realized that some of my friends from SXC had moved on. I won’t like to say anything about it but would definitely like to wish all of them [because they all are my friends and will always be] the best of what they truly deserve and I am sure each one will do great in their lives. Also if they are happy without me then I would be happier to leave them to their own selves. :-)

Then two of my friends, even though they are my juniors, but I count them more as my friends left town for higher studies. Both of them are doing great in their own fields and I am sure that they will be big names soon. Then two of my friends also landed with a job. I am proud for them as well.

His results had come out and he had scored much more than what he had expected. I was so ecstatic just to hear about it and moreover he got through the college placements which he feared he wouldn’t. I am sure he will do greatly in his work, he already is. He has even been tagged as the best fresher in their company. Wish you lot of love and luck and good things in life my baby. You truly deserve them all.

Had a few situations in the home front for which I escaped from the house. And looking back to my escapes, I had managed to escape at least 4 times. For the first time it was for a week, another time for 4 days, then again for 2 days and the last time for a few hours. It was fun to see that even I had the courage and strength to walk away from something I feared would hurt others. But interestingly enough no one even understood that I had escaped. Someday maybe such an escape will help me get out of everything else and I am sure even then it wouldn’t matter to anyone. It wouldn’t I am sure, especially to that one person whom I thought would understand me the most, but I guess I cant always be right. :P

Also my brother got engaged finally in the last year and this year he is getting married. I am so happy for him. Wish him a happy and prosperous and an awesome married life. I am sure he will get the best of all the good things. I know that he truly deserves them all.

Then also I started earning on my own. I am so happy and thankfully busy as well. :D It has been a great experience till yet and I hope I get to enjoy my work more and more as the time moves on.

He had come and that is enough to describe how my year must have ended. I also got 59.75% in my Part I examinations. I came second in my Mass Communication degree. I got a laptop. I bought a cell phone from my own money for the very first time.

So all in all 2010 had been a great roller coaster ride for me. With all the music and movies and sounds and sights, I must admit that I had a great time. And I will cherish each of these moments forever in my life.

I don’t expect anything out of 2011. I am sure I will be surprised and shocked and all I can say is- ‘Bring it on…’. Thank YOU Bhagwanji for everything. Love You.

He...

Rubbishness everywhere
Fakeness becomes a reality
Darkness is the new light
And he still manages to smile

Turning the back
Hiding from the crowd
Avoiding the mirrors
And yet he manages to shout

The pale sun
The dark sky
The lonely moon
And yet he won’t cry

Is it what he expected of life?
Tears and joy
Strength and denial
Windows and the doors
Will someone step in?
Or will he step out of it forever?

Giving love and joy to others
Smiling and yet being sad
Enjoying the curse called life
Is there anything else to be had?