**NRA...**

How onee's subconscious mind works is really hard to observe and tell? The conscious mind picks up bits and pieces of information and then when we don't expect anything the sub-conscious mind shows us all of it.

Something like this happened with me just yesterday. I woke up in the morning and didn't really felt like coming out of my room at all, even though I could hear frantic bangs on the door[Mom was trying to wake me up]. But then it was just a dream so I thought that its over and done with. Who would know that a stupid Dream can make me fall for someone I never really intended to fall for and that to such strange attraction because of a stupid dream. I don't really know what my dreams where trying to tell me but I am sure that the dream helped me like this spceific "Non-Reliable Attraction". And even though none of this will actually happen[cause that is next to impossible], I am sure that I will keep liking this NRA of mine and maybe in my dreams NRA will keep on coming and entertaining me and even though we might hardly know each other somehow I feel that I came to know somethings about this sweet NRA of mine and what else I like people as they are. And even though my dream aint coming true but my respect for others seem to have increased a lot and I know that I can love anyone as and when I want to, without any limits and boundaries. So NRA...Rock on and maybe I will keep on Liking you as you are and no expectations cause all of this is just a dream. Isnt it? We will never meet and shall never see each other but somewhere I know you will be with me, even though you aint even aware of my existence. Wish you luck in life and I hope to do well in my life too :-)

If nothing was clear to you out there, reading it out, I love to confuse people all the more. So enjoy the confusion all the more.

ON the floor...........

It's strange that even after reminding myself thousands of times that I shouldn't be sharing anything at all with anyone, I end up starting a blog of my own and I am actually even writing in it. Well I have nothing that great to share with all, but just that writing makes me help revive my spirits which can be affected by a whole number of reasons. It was a little weird for me to realise the fact that I don't have that great writing skills in life but know what, whatever I want to say somehow or the other it gets across to people and I guess that is the main motive of writing something on the first place and it works and works quite brilliantly.
All random thoughts seem to not let me write what I originally intended to but it seems now I will write about everything that comes in my mind at this very moment. And I am least interested if they are not in any proper order.........its just me and my hands which are working now ;)
Some things can have such great affect on ourselves that you can't help but speak about it to someone...
And now I definitely don't feel like talking again. This is a serious problem with me, even though when I want to speak I just can't after a certain point. I wasnt like this before but then Somethings affect us really badly in life that I choose not to repeat some mistakes in life and obviously I would love to repeat some ;)
A warning from before hand, many of my blogs will be just like that, useless and careless...but they will be all mine :P

My Smile

I smile and I smile,
I then wait for a while.
But then you did not notice
And I smile and I smile.

I smiled to hide you in it,
I smiled to love you for it,
I smiled as I wanted to smile,
I smiled as I could not have cried.

I smile and I smile,
I then wait for a while.
But then you did not notice
And I smile and I smile

I smiled as no one could see.
I smiled and how could it be,
That you looking right though me
Could not see that I smile just to smile.

I smile and I smile
I then wait for a while.
But then you have not yet noticed,
And still I smile and I smile.

For my Friend

It is still painful to recall those days

When I was there with you always

Those were some moments when we shared

Our thoughts, our affections, and ourselves

But now the time does not seems right

The gap is widened by this time

What to do when we both understand

That life moves on and we have to hold on to its stand

But remember something and do not forget

We will always be together and shall never regret

The loss we suffered for so long

And now we are back to being friends, no more alone

It’s easy to say. But seems hard to tell

But isn’t it good for us to dwell

Together as those mortal beings on earth

Who know not each other and yet understand so well

And if ever you need me, shout my name out

And wait for me to come and reach out

My friend of my dearest thoughts

Remember, I am always here if you need me or not